Depressed

Fuck my life. Fuck my life. Fuck my life. I hate this. Damn ! … Not even my birthday is going right.  I wish I can kill myself.  I wish I could do so.  It wouldn’t be that bad if I stuck a knife into my chest and pronounced myself dead, right?  Why don’t people understand that I’m NOT smart?!?!?! I’m never going to be smart in my life.  I’m guessing my mom killed my brain cells every time she punched my head when I was a kid.  Since when was I EVER a happy child?!?!?!  No… Let me tell you… I was never a happy kid.  Even my birthday is going pretty bad.  Would it work if I killed myself? :[[[. She promised me. SHE PROMISED ME. I hate my life. I hate it.   UGH ! Maybe death is a better choice.  Hmm… I was talking with this girl on emoearth.com and she told me that she carved things into her skin when she was upset. :333. MAYBE I should try it ! <3

LMFAO.  I like the fact that I’m able to kill myself.  When I was curling up in the frickin’ closet crying, I was thinking… Maybe death is a pretty good choice. :333. I like the pits of hell. They’re so comfy and cozy and the perfect spot for a devil to live in.   I do wonder what will happen if I overdose on any drug. Hmm… a great and fateful ending. <3

Okay, so I’m not making much sense. D: … I’m not feeling myself today.   I had this absurd dream where the death angel took me.  I was standing in front of the gates of hell and Satan forced me to choose between staying on Earth or going to hell. I chose hell and then I haunted all the people I've ever liked. ;]]… It was… sweet. <3… I smelt the blood and killed people.

I feel pretty guilty right now. It’s GOOD FRIDAY and I didn’t go to church. :’[[[... It was so sadd. And I like going to church.  It's kinda weird, but I seriously do like going to church.

Well, today was a pretty bad day. My birthday is tomorrow! Yay me! <3... But... I'm getting a job.  I'm not quite happy about that...

*yawns*... Well, I'm tired. Signing out. ;]

XOXO,

minniie

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